I’ve felt so busy lately. There’s been lots of prep work for an art show I’m doing in a few weeks. So much work goes into selling my work — hours of printing photos, matting, framing, making cards, necklaces, chatzkies…all these creative bits and pieces of different ways to make nature photography and my writing accessible to people.
If I sound like I’m whining, I don’t mean to. I love the work and I’d die happy if I could do it every day, if it was the only thing I was doing every day. I’m working three different jobs — all of which I love wholeheartedly for different reasons, and lately, I really have to convince myself to sit down and do the productive work that will sell my creative work. I mostly just want to engage in the creative part of it all, not the marketing part. So, when Spring Break happened this week for one of my jobs, my plan was to use the free time to work on being productive.
I haven’t really felt productive, though.
I guess I’ve been craving release — or maybe the equilibrium that’s attained after that release happens. Whatever has been rising in me, I mostly just wanted to get outside and find whatever it is I find out there on the land.
This is the slowest Spring I’ve ever encountered, and today the land vibrated with 64 degree sunshine weather. So, today — this glorious day — I decided to ignore my obligations, abandoned all goals of productivity, and declared today “Do Whatever the Fuck I Want to Day.” It’s worked out quite lovely.
It started with me stepping out my front door and noticing that Spring was seriously creeping in on Winter:
That made me pretty excited.
My cats were pretty excited about the weather, too. They got pretty drunk on sunshine and outdoor warmth:
And then this little nuthatch showed up and followed me around, zipping from tree to tree with its cute little tweet:
And finally, this sweet little titmouse came along and so politely hammed it up for the camera:
The things these photos don’t capture is how my whole perspective changed today and how my energy became renewed simply by doing away with all the “shoulds” and doing whatever I felt called to do.
Eventually, I put down my camera and just laid there, with the sun on my bare arms and face, allowing myself to recharge. I’ve waited months for today, and I’m so glad it arrived on a day where I could ignore all my obligations and soak up the present moment.